Happy 1am, happy Thursday, my birthday is tomorrow, I need to stop drinking alone and taking selfies, goodnight
usually when I have inspiration, I write it down, and I like it better without editing. The spontaneity and pure thought is part of my style. and I did the same with this one piece, but decided to create a longer story around it, with the original being part 2 of 3.
But now it’s all got me confused and I can’t get it right…maybe I’m trying too hard now… I don’t know what it is but I can’t seem to make it feel like what I want. I want this one to really cut little holes in the reader, I want them to feel it. As of right now I feel I won’t ever get it right. Maybe because it’s not spontaneous like usual Im getting my expectations too high? Ugh I don’t know but this is so frustrating. I also can’t decide what kind of flow I want it to have, and I’m ending up mixing them all together. At first it was a sort of short story with some repetition, then it turned into a slam poem, now the part I’m trying to write sounds like it needs to be rapped and I can’t fucking decide how to do this. So frustrating.
I have no idea why I’m telling you this but I’m drunk and I’m annoyed and I’ll let you know when I finally figure this out…
this is what my life has becomeI’m thinking I’ll just spend my entire day tomorrow creeping around the grocery store trying to talk to people.. ugh realistically I’ll have to drink first though.
Bob Dylan - Don’t Think Twice, It’s Alright
— (via paintedmustang)
I always find myself doing illegal things